May I just say, I have had a bit of a revelation the past few days. My life verse
Psalm 37:4New International Version (NIV)
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
And He proved this to be true one more time on my behalf. I can just say that several things just unfolded that I hold within a close whisper to the Lord often.
I was having a conversation with sister who lives in Dallas, Texas these days, she voiced to me that she would really like me to come to Dallas and run a race with her. Inside I was screaming, “YES!” but the words that came out of my mouth were, “financially it just isn’t possible.” We went on about our conversation.
A couple of weeks later on my birthday I got an e-mail from another sister who said, “Get your running shoes on, you are going to run in Dallas with Tawnya!” Jenay shared her miles so that I may go!!!!! A GIFT!!! She and I know what it is to run a race together and for her to GIVE in such a way that I may run with another sister, pretty special I must say.
OH GOSH, now I have to really dig my heals in and begin to train. I was not going to go with the mind set of being the ‘old one’ that had to be waited for, ha! However, training always has it’s challenges with time and all but this time, I seriously (as I kept saying)I had ISSUES! Just to name a few; my planter faciatis came back with a vengeance, then I had this new ankle thing that seriously at times I was like, “how am I going to run, I can’t walk?” Then, this sciatic nerve thing that has kicked my butt literally! Oh and then some other issues I am just not going to mention. I have felt old and pretty darn defeated!
I also have become such a creature of regiment. I know what I NEED before a race food wise, the steps I go thru that morning, the time change was freaking me out, and in my head I am thinking how am I going to do these things from a motel? Oh, and then AFTER, a shower, my chocolate milk………. SCREAMMMMMM!!!!!
I look back and there is not one thing that did not go without a hitch. My flight, motel, food, vitamins, shower, chocolate milk, it went beautifully!
The morning before the race I got up our time (3 am) and began rubbing my massage cream into my leg and I just prayed over my body and told the Lord, “hey we are here now, I want this to be such a fun day, please make me strong.”
I get all teared up to say, I felt incredible, I think I was healed. It was my second best time ever, I didn’t even feel a twinge during the run and three days later every single issue, I am not feeling it. For a couple of days now I have been telling myself that I am crazy, but I am not crazy, when you see a miracle on someone else you see it so clear, when it is your own miracle, well, let’s just say, “I do give Him all the credit and glory!”
Sister had shirts made for us three.
In our corral, ready to Rock n Roll….
Dallas cheerleaders were at the end cheering us on! (I didn’t even see them I was so focused getting over the finish line. I made them go back so we could get a picture of them.)
Tawnya, she spoiled me rotten from paying for motel, getting me around, feeding me, letting me be the ‘crazy auntie,’ she even took me to…. (drum roll please) Joanna Gaines Magnolia Market in Waco Texas. I know all of you Fixer Upper fans are drooling with envy right now. When we got there they said that we ‘just missed Chip’. RRRrrrrrrrrr………
The girls sitting in a wheel barrel at Magnolia. Jena, she was right there beside me looking at all the pretties, she loves pretties.
These two boys stole my heart. I love both of them. Of course, the littlest, we slayed some dragons together a few times.
I got to watch a softball game of Kysa’s. It was fun watching and listening to all the Texan drawls. “Go Koyza!” they would say…..
Sister, she is a true Texan. I am so happy she loves it there. It was so nice to see her in her element. Very proud of her and this family. It was such an honor to be apart for just a sliver of time.
These kiddos, have completely taken my heart. I love each one so much. I am truly the most satisfied crazy aunt in the whole world.
The boys, they made it great without me. Ruby is healing…..I know she was cheering me on as she was healing at home.
Thank you Lord for giving to me the desires of my heart.
What a roller coaster of a week.
Wednesday, I went for a good long run with my running partner, Ruby. She is preparing me with every run I do 5 days out of the week, for most likely, my last half marathon that takes place next weekend with my sister in Dallas, Texas! Ruby has ran ever single mile with me in training and I count on her for her endurance, protection, and friendship.
Oh she loves to go. She knows in the morning when I walk out my door if I am going running by the way I am dressed. If I have my running gear on she runs for the van eager to get in and GO! If I am in my street clothes, she walks the other way and at times snubs me by her attitude a bit.
We came home from our run after picking the boys us from an unexpected pickup due to a power outage at the school. We got out of the van and I changed rigs for I had hay in the back of the truck that needed to be stacked in the barn. I let Ruby out of the van and as I was driving the truck down to the barn I think she was trying to figure out which way I was going and turned to look and I ran her over! It was an instant cry for help! I ran to her and blood was gushing out of her side like a fountain. I put my hand over it and yelled for Corvan to grab me a towel from the inside of the house. He went a running. We got her in the truck and Jordan went to the vet with me putting pressure on her side to keep the blood from coming so strongly. We prayed and cried the whole way to the vet.
They stitched her up and began an IV. The whole time she was leaning up against me looking me in the eye just humming over and over again. It broke me, she is such a good girl my best buddy and I hurt her so bad. The mussel thing we hated but it’s a precaution they have to take, she is in so much pain after all. Jordan was right there being supportive and inquisitive making sure they were taking good care of her. At one point he had to go lean up against the wall, he was looking a little pale and telling me he was not feeling well. “Big breathes honey!”
The X-rays showed a fractured back leg. No internal damage from what they could see, she was hurt so bad!
We left Ruby there with some medicine so that she could rest without pain. We went home to wait for word on what they wanted to do with her.
We went home and instantly I went and took a long shower and had a major break down telling God, ” I can’t run without my RUBY! ” over and over again! I let the sisters, mom, and friends know what was up and they were all so loving and prayed along with us for her.
Beautiful flowers sent to us from Sister Debbie.
That evening we all went down to visit her and the secretary at the desk blurted out, “well, to fix her it will be a 4000 dollar bill, however we could amputate and that would cost you 1500 dollars.” I instantly went into a bawling fit. I knew we could not afford to fix her and my running partner without a leg? What kind of life would she lead when she loves to run, hike, swim, and catch balls. They would give us time to make the decision. We all walked out of there a mess.
On top of it all, Jim was working out of town without cell service so we were having a hard time communicating and I needed his opinion and support and what to do with her! We left there with out much hope. I thought the most LOGICAL thing to do is to put her down. After talking to the sisters they had me convinced that amputating would be the option. She has a big heart and she would do great. I looked up many stories and was encouraged, this might possibly be the route we must take. The kids were having a hard time being convinced. Jordan was so precious (as were the rest) but his response was, “take all of my money, I don’t need it I’m just a kid!” Then they all decided our Disneyland fund that we have been saving for for several years we didn’t need it anyway. Whatever it took, they weren’t willing to give her up. We prayed, we prayed!
Around 10 o’clock that night I got a call from my parents. My dad had spoken to my hometown vet who was willing to take on Ruby as a patient, to do the surgery, to fix her for less of a price than an amputation here.
It was so late, we made no decisions, went to bed and would make more decisions in the morning after I spoke to our vet from my hometown.
I had the kids go to school, but we all packed our bags and had them ready in the car if that was going to be the decision. I took them to school, and went on a run with a friend, who dropped tears with me for she was missing our run without our girl too. On the run, Doctor Scott called and told me to get her there and he would take care of her. What a relief, and HOPE we had once again.
The boys and I were off on our five hour drive with our passenger in tow. Jim met us there, and he was thrilled we were getting her fixed. He is so good with animals, he is actually AMAZING with them. And he loves Ruby like the rest of us do. We dropped her off at Doctor Scott’s vet office knowing she was in good hands, she had a very intricate surgery done the next day, she did great, and now we just got home with our Ruby girl laying by the door, glad to be home, and healing.
Thank you Lord, for giving us this option. You heard our pleas and you answered.
This year, my word for the year is ………….TRUST! I knew that this was my word a few months before the new year came.
Through the years I have had many things that I have prayed about on a steady basis for years. I would say that even though I know my Jesus to be faithful and all knowing that I also have become a little jaded because I have yet to see these things come to fruician. A hardening of my heart almost out of protection for my heart. But, all that has done is make me bitter and negative towards those things that I pray about on a continual basis.
So, this last year as my word from last year, ‘grace’, has certainly worked in my life big time. I have seen it thru and thru, how the Lord so willingly extends that to me. I too, feel like I have changed so much in the area of not just receiving and recognizing grace from my Savior but also in GIVING much grace. I think it has made my heart softer in areas for things I might have been judgmental about at one time.
I ask the Lord, what is it that you want from me? And over and over what came to my mind was TRUST!
The verse that I have known forever Proverbs 3:5-12 in the NIV but when I saw it in The Message it was like I had read it for the first time, so this goes along with my word this year.
Proverbs 3:5-12The Message (MSG)
5-12 Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he’s the one who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume that you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
your wine vats will brim over.
But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline;
don’t sulk under his loving correction.
It’s the child he loves that God corrects;
a father’s delight is behind all this.
Every single line in this Proverb is exactly where I am placing all my energy this year.
Trust Him with all my heart even that part that is hardened.
Give up trying to understand the why’s or taking it into my own hands
Oh, how I want to hear His voice, IN EVERYTHING!
He will keep me pointed in the direction He wants me to go when I stay close to Him.
I don’t know much, this I know
Go to Him, even when at times I think ‘it doesn’t matter’ or I’m feeling small.
I want my body to be strong
I want to take care of that which He has blessed me with and talk to Him about all that He has given to me so that I may manage it the way He would have me to.
Yes, I want to give where He directs me to give. I want to see a need and do my best with taking care of it the way He would see fit.
Thank you Jesus for blessing that which I have
It hurts to be spanked but sometimes I know I have it coming and I know He knows best for me.
Yes, I can sulk, I can go into myself and feel so unheard that I don’t work it out, I just stay and feel beat up.
I know He knows what is for my own good. IN ALL THINGS!
I DO TRUST HIM and when I do feel any of these things in a negative way, I have been practicing, “I TRUST YOU JESUS” I say it over and over about all matters in my little world at the moment.
It was a good day indeed! All the members of the team that made it this far worked so hard the whole week before to prepare and then also at the meet. So proud of each one.
We started out with a team parade. See these big boys? Most of them move on after this day. (snif)
Nice ceremony to begin the day!
Corvan really kicked it in and did so well! Super proud of him!
Jordan had a bit of an off day for him, but he is still standing tall on that podium. Nice Job JOR!
It was a fantastic season. I’m happy we may get some weekends back and might be able to have a few sit down dinners as a family during the week. But, then I also will miss all of those families I have spent countless hours with watching and cheering our boys on to be good athletes but also to grow in their character as upstanding to be men.
I think my adrenaline is on high usage since yesterday.
Did you happen to see the Seahawks play today? Oh my goodness, what a game. It was a pure adrenaline rush, and then to watch Russel Wilson dropping tears at the end, well, it was almost too much! Now off to the SUPERBOWL! Whoot! Whoot!
Yesterday started my adrenaline rush. Corvan and Jordan went to divisions with their wrestling. Only top 4 go in each weight class so we are talking some good wrestling. Nail biters! We are apart of a team that really do cheer one another on. If I see one of their kids at the mat I’m there to be support and if they see one of my kids at the mat I know they are right there behind me. It feels good to have the support.
Here is an example of Corvan’s team mates. Earlier in the season, Corvan went early in the morning to weigh in for a dual and stepping on that scale was 2 pounds over. Corvan had one hour to loose those pounds to be able to wrestle. Corvan’s friend Brayden, who is a top wrestler, took his time and energy to work Corv for that hour to loose those pounds. He sweated right along with Corvan and looking down on that scale an hour later to see that Corvan made weight with not even an ounce to spare, right on the dot!
Brayden, Corvan’s friend, got hurt and is unable to finish the season out, which brought tears to my eyes for him, we all know he would have been standing at the top of the podium. He showed up to divisions, him and his dad, and when Corv needed encouragement, without words, went for a walk with Corvan outside to get himself back together. He’s a friend, and an athlete.
Divisions, Corvan ended up in 3rd place and Jordan in 2nd. Could a Momma be any more proud of these boys?
Jordan stacking this boy, BOOM!
Jordan won each one until he went for first or second place. Jordan has wrestled this boy several times this year and knew he was TOUGH.
Does his opponent look fearful to you? The boy ended up kicking it in and winning but he has Jordan FEAR don’t you think?
Next time buddy, I just know it! Second place is amazing, AMAZING! (snif, snif)
Then Corv, he has had a tough group this year. And can I just tell you, he worked his tail off for that 3rd place.
This is what makes wrestling Momma’s cry………..
Corv went into 4 over times and ended up loosing by one point! I cannot explain to you the emotion, the adrenaline going thru these veins of mine. Watching Corv wrestle like he’s never wrestled before, watching the emotion in him. When it was all said and done I was on all fours on the mat, I got to my feet with tears welled up, I turn around and Jim is standing behind me all welled up with tears, then I turn around a little further and there are my friends wiping tears from their eyes too.
He almost had it!
When Corvan gets to this point he is unstoppable……..UNSTOPPABLE!
Over time! A drink and a close pep talk from the coaches!
It’s over, and now a little reassuring! Look at Jor’s concerned face!
Back in the stands for a little moment to himself.
But all in all it was a victory for both boys. They worked so hard and next week will be even tougher. League wrestlers, can my heart take it? I’m so glad I have a week to recover!