Sometimes it’s hard being a big girl and not getting your feelings in the way of your mothering/parenting. Does anybody else have this issue? When they were little if they said or did something you excused it a little more and let things slide a bit because they are little. Then they get big and still don’t intentionally ‘hurt’ your feelings but they still do. A boy begins to slide a little closer to dad and it’s all natural and really you are so glad that he is but inside you are thinking, “what about me?” But then what goes thru the brain, should I in a kind of a diplomatic way say something because one day there will be that girl in their life that they are not ‘intentionally hurting’ either so you want to make them aware? It’s a fine line that I am still trying to find for I don’t want to sound like the mother over here whining and begging the attention I think I should be getting, because really that is not justified it’s a natural pulling away. Again, naturally they don’t think like a woman does and of course I want him to be the best mate the the Lord intends for him to be.
This mothering thing at this boy teen level has me scratching my head on more occasions than not. I have been on my knees with the Lord much more out of pure, ‘don’t know what to do, or not do’. He is growing into an independent individual with a very boy brain. As I said, it is all good, but leaves be baffled. As I was talking to my girl friend yesterday as she has a son same age as mine and the first born…..that first born, poor babies…..they are the test drive for the rest and sometimes it’s good and sometimes not so good. Thank you Jesus for His grace to love him and me thru….