Momma wants to fix it!

Brayden’s cast
right before heading into surgery, he’s smilin’!
After surgery, in the recovery room, he’s trying to wake up….so vulnerable, I couldn’t STOP kissing him all over, to see him like this I think the kissing him kept the tears from being out of control.
Ready to go home!

Yesterday Brayden had surgery on some tendons near his ankle. When he had his football injury it never healed so surgery is what it came down to, to FIX the problem. He is doing well. We came home and I was thinking (and he was) this is going to be easy sailing until about 2 o’clock this morning when he comes barreling into my room with so much pain!I gave him some meds, rubbed his back, and prayed over him. All he kept saying was, “I have to move it, I have to get it out of this position!” He was even trying to convince me that it was bleeding enough to tear the cast right off. In all honesty, that mother bear was coming out and I was even trying to convince Jim that we had to do something! I was manipulating Jim. He was talking it out and telling me how that was not a good idea but trying to make things better (bless his heart, he was trying to make it better for both of us!). I KNEW better, but I couldn’t stop and look at the situation without my emotions getting involved. I hated seeing him like that, and after getting him situated in our bed with us, the meds began taking effect, he began to relax and so did I.
So, this morn I got up to get on my treadmill and was thinking about how desperate a Momma gets over the needs of her children. We will do ANYTHING to make it better, anything, whether it’s rational or not. But, in the end we use the wisdom and knowledge to do the right thing even when we have to see our babes hurting. I was crying, I was hurting watching him be in pain, but I knew in the end that cast was for his own good, his protection, a tool in his healing process. Jim kept telling me it will pass, give it time…
I began to thank the Lord because I know that at times in our every day walk with the Lord He sees us hurting, wants to miraculously FIX it yet sometimes he knows to hold off for there are things in us that he needs to work through and in us in our healing process so that we have a full successful recovery so that we may not hurt again.I am glad that we have a Lord who knows really what we need because he sees the whole picture when at times in desperation we want it fixed NOW because of the pain it is causing us, yet our Lord, sees it all and works with us according to his wisdom, knowledge, and perfection. I am soooooo grateful!

December 9, 2010 - 10:33 pm

Anonymous - Poor Pook!!! I am glad he is feeling better! Maybe he needs to push Joy around a little on that toy to help heal šŸ™‚
A:)

December 10, 2010 - 12:03 am

Shauna - Oh poor baby. My heart is bleeding for you and him. It is true and sometimes I think mommies “feel” worse then patient. Sometimes we make it worse by trying to “help.” Ugh!
So glad Jim was there to coach you through that and Pooks pain is under control.
PLease kiss him for me!

December 10, 2010 - 12:39 am

Cheryl @ On the Old Path - Poor Brayden…girl I know your struggle. It is so hard to be helpless to make it better. We are the ones that are supposed to be able to give it that magic kiss and everything is okay and when we are powerless to help it truly is uncharted territory for us. I am praying that the worst is over and for a pain-free night for him
Blessings!!!!!!!

December 10, 2010 - 12:53 am

Mrs. A - Aww Marlece, It was great to hear from you. I hope your son heals quickly.

God bless you.

December 10, 2010 - 9:27 am

Kerry - Aww, poor lil guy. Praying for a speedy recovery for him.

December 10, 2010 - 3:14 pm

Jenay - Poor pook…I’m praying for this sweet nephew of mine. I’m so amazed how the Lord just speaks to us about the same things at the same time so many times. I was wondering why we are having so many trials right now and I just felt like the Lord was telling me that it was for my own good, and I DO NOT understand it or like it, but it is for my own good, kindof like when we have to take our kids in for shots…do you really think at 1 month old they understand why, WE, their protectors are allowing a sharp needle to pierce their precious skin. So, I read your blog and realized, the Lord is teaching us the same thing AGAIN! Love ya sister and praying for my Pook.

December 10, 2010 - 4:00 pm

Lindsey - Oh my goodess, how rough! Will be praying for speedy recovery. That had to be so very hard on you. I know as moms we just want to take our babies pain etc. God bless you all!

December 10, 2010 - 4:01 pm

Jasmine - Marlece, I hope your big guy heals quickly. I can’t bear to see my children hurting either, but sometimes it’s necessary.

I was so glad to hear from you. I miss you, too.

December 10, 2010 - 7:34 pm

Gina - Oh you poor things. Both of you. I SO know how hard it is as a momma to watch our kids suffer.
I feel so bad for Brayden having to go through all that. This turned out to be quite an extended injury for him. I am sure the part that breaks his heart the most is being out of commission.
We are praying for him to heal quick with no more pain (for boy AND momma).
I do appreciate Marlece how reflective you are. Recognizing the lesson in everything. It’s SO good to stay teachable.
and… to teach.
Keep up the good work, Momma. Love you.

December 11, 2010 - 3:08 am

Big Fat Mama - I will be praying for healing for Brayden. You are so right, even though we want things fixed right away, God’s timing is always perfect!

December 12, 2010 - 1:09 am

Casey Martinez - OH my heart hurts for you and what your son went through. Daisy smacked her little head pretty good 3 separate times today with different people and I felt anger…I felt hopeless and like I failed by letting her get hurt…then I just hurt to see her hurt. Wow, crazy the love that we have for our kids and it doesn’t matter if they are one month or 50 years old!! I admire your wisdom in this situation and your faith to trust in the Lord. God Bless you as you lean on Him for His strength and direction! Hugs!

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