right before heading into surgery, he’s smilin’!
After surgery, in the recovery room, he’s trying to wake up….so vulnerable, I couldn’t STOP kissing him all over, to see him like this I think the kissing him kept the tears from being out of control.
Ready to go home!
Yesterday Brayden had surgery on some tendons near his ankle. When he had his football injury it never healed so surgery is what it came down to, to FIX the problem. He is doing well. We came home and I was thinking (and he was) this is going to be easy sailing until about 2 o’clock this morning when he comes barreling into my room with so much pain!I gave him some meds, rubbed his back, and prayed over him. All he kept saying was, “I have to move it, I have to get it out of this position!” He was even trying to convince me that it was bleeding enough to tear the cast right off. In all honesty, that mother bear was coming out and I was even trying to convince Jim that we had to do something! I was manipulating Jim. He was talking it out and telling me how that was not a good idea but trying to make things better (bless his heart, he was trying to make it better for both of us!). I KNEW better, but I couldn’t stop and look at the situation without my emotions getting involved. I hated seeing him like that, and after getting him situated in our bed with us, the meds began taking effect, he began to relax and so did I.
So, this morn I got up to get on my treadmill and was thinking about how desperate a Momma gets over the needs of her children. We will do ANYTHING to make it better, anything, whether it’s rational or not. But, in the end we use the wisdom and knowledge to do the right thing even when we have to see our babes hurting. I was crying, I was hurting watching him be in pain, but I knew in the end that cast was for his own good, his protection, a tool in his healing process. Jim kept telling me it will pass, give it time…
I began to thank the Lord because I know that at times in our every day walk with the Lord He sees us hurting, wants to miraculously FIX it yet sometimes he knows to hold off for there are things in us that he needs to work through and in us in our healing process so that we have a full successful recovery so that we may not hurt again.I am glad that we have a Lord who knows really what we need because he sees the whole picture when at times in desperation we want it fixed NOW because of the pain it is causing us, yet our Lord, sees it all and works with us according to his wisdom, knowledge, and perfection. I am soooooo grateful!