one of those days….

Have you ever just had ‘one of those days?’ One of those days that seems so out of control, so beyond what you think you can manage, everything makes you cry? I know, I am sounding so hormonal. I wish that I could blame it all on that. But I know this is a day that I feel like crying, hormones or not, doesn’t change this fact.

My son, bless his heart, he is feeling out of place, feeling there is no place for him, acquaird, resistant, trying to fit, not even knowing what that looks like to him. He is struggling. This frustrates this Momma, makes me want to fix it, protect, cover, be mad, love on him and strangle him all at the same. I am feeling frustrated, helpless, and it hurts.

My son, he is one who always resists, always fights an issue, but in the end always makes the right choice. I trust this about him. He is such a good kid! I just told him (whether he would like to believe it or not) has so much of me in himself, personality wise. I do this exact thing. I get to the place of, almost right out, rebellion before I will surrender and give it UP.But, I do and that is what matters, but this way makes one hurt….my Mom use to tell me I would always take the hard route…I am now telling my son this.I know even to this day, it hurts to get to that place of doing right. Is this what it feels like when dying to flesh? I think possibly.

For a Momma watching this, again, it hurts. I am sure it feels the same way to our Heavenly Father when we are going thru ‘stuff’ that we need to work out and thru. I know he drops tears for the pain we endure too.

January 8, 2011 - 4:30 am

Rachel - Oh, Marlece, bless your heart. I will be praying for you and your son.

I’m learning to love my mornings around here. But, like you said, about some people being night gals (like me) those early mornings are challenging!

Blessings to you!!

Rachel

January 8, 2011 - 6:44 am

Jhen.Stark - Being a new mommy with so many more years and experience to go before she starts taking the “hard routes”, I can’t fully understand this. But I can be moved for him and by him and you! And be praying for you, as his mama, and be praying for your son! Thank goodness, that no matter what route we take, easy or hard, our Jesus is always right beside us and there to welcome us at our arrival!!!!

January 8, 2011 - 7:47 am

Gina - Well, you know what I do? Whenever I have “one of those days”? I call you!! So, aside from telling you to call me… I don’t know what else to say. I already know that you pray and you listen for that still, small voice… so, what else can I offer my dear sweet friend? A Hug?

You are such a loving and deeply compassionate Momma! Which makes it even harder to see our kids hurting.

This too shall pass.

I love you.

January 8, 2011 - 5:29 pm

Nabila Grace - My dear I have been having a few of those days recently! I want a button to push where it takes all the guesswork out. :o) Praying for you dear!

January 8, 2011 - 11:25 pm

The Angulo's - Marlece, I don’t know what to say. I think I am like that too. Thanks for the insight. God probably does shed tears when we go through stuff.

God bless you

January 9, 2011 - 1:07 am

Lady Rose - Marlece,

Yes, I have had those does where I just feel like “falling apart” and crying for no reason. Ugh! I guess that’s just a part of life, but sometimes, I wish that I didn’t have to go through with it.

I must add that inspite of your feelings of “sadness,” you were able to be there for your son who was going through a difficult time, even though it was painful for you to watch him feeling bad. I like that. It shows that you have strength coming from “somewhere” Mom, and that “somewhere” has to be from God. 🙂

Anyway, take care, and I hope that you are feeling better soon. 🙂

Blessings,

-Lady Rose

January 9, 2011 - 2:58 am

Big Fat Mama - Oh, I remember those days so vividly of trying to fit in, but still wanting to do what’s right. It was such a hard time, and maybe one every kid goes through. But I have to tell you, that is my testimony story. In 9th grade when I was trying to fit in, and got mixed up with the wrong crowd for a few months I realized that wasn’t the life I wanted to be in and that’s when I decided to get baptized and fit in with God instead! In one week I had a whole new circle of friends, got baptized and my life was a new life. As a mother, my mom was very nervous and worried about me in those times I was going through my “phase.” She said she would just pray for me every night. And I know her prayers were heard and answered. And, thanks to God I never actually did anything I regret, I just ran around with those who weren’t making good choices. Sometimes as a mom the best and only thing you can do is pray. And I will pray with you too!!

January 10, 2011 - 5:41 am

Brenda - Oh Marlece! Isn’t just amazing how we ache for our kids as they journey through the hills and valleys! He is a blessed boy to have you as his mom. I’ll join up with the rest and tuck you both into my prayers.

January 20, 2011 - 4:25 pm

Mama D.'s Dozen - I’ve had a LOT of “those days” … for myself … for my big kids. Who are we? Where do we fit? What is God’s plan for our lives.

By the way … I’m going to be “down your way” in a couple of weeks, and would LOVE to meet for coffee. (I’m going to a scrapbooking retreat down by Centralia, so thought we could meet up on my way down or back, if you’d like.) I’ll be in touch about this …

Hope your week has been BLESSED!

Laurel

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