My son, bless his heart, he is feeling out of place, feeling there is no place for him, acquaird, resistant, trying to fit, not even knowing what that looks like to him. He is struggling. This frustrates this Momma, makes me want to fix it, protect, cover, be mad, love on him and strangle him all at the same. I am feeling frustrated, helpless, and it hurts.
My son, he is one who always resists, always fights an issue, but in the end always makes the right choice. I trust this about him. He is such a good kid! I just told him (whether he would like to believe it or not) has so much of me in himself, personality wise. I do this exact thing. I get to the place of, almost right out, rebellion before I will surrender and give it UP.But, I do and that is what matters, but this way makes one hurt….my Mom use to tell me I would always take the hard route…I am now telling my son this.I know even to this day, it hurts to get to that place of doing right. Is this what it feels like when dying to flesh? I think possibly.
For a Momma watching this, again, it hurts. I am sure it feels the same way to our Heavenly Father when we are going thru ‘stuff’ that we need to work out and thru. I know he drops tears for the pain we endure too.