A different place for me today. I have always been one to think that you basically are as old as you think you are. I am here in my 40’s and don’t feel any different than my 20’s inside my head or my body. I feel a little wiser about things but then always still learning new things too. I really have not even been a big fan of the word ‘lady’, sounds so old to me, I’m a ‘girl’. In the past few years I have changed thing up a little because of my age. I am a vitamin nut, I color my hair not just for affect but because I have gray, I dress more classy rather than trendy, I think more before I speak, I know that I can’t go a day without being in the Lord’s Word whether a minute or an hour, I run more, etc….
This weekend though a few thing made me feel ‘old’. I went to church and pulled out the ‘ole magnifying glasses so I could read the bible. My son said something to me and I looked up out the top of the glasses at him (you know that look). I was getting into the shower and turned to get something off of the counter got a glimpse of myself in the mirror and saw this saggy butt, I took a double take and did a little scream, like, “that is not my butt!” I was cleaning husband’s truck, a person from Jim’s job dropped by and after he left I got a reflection of myself in the mirror and thought to myself, “it is time to start wearing makeup even to do the chores around this house I am not that ‘natural’ beauty anymore, this Momma needs help! I had bought candles for Corvan’s cake and could not, for the life of me, find the darn things! Things like this drive me crazy, like obsessive crazy. I have to take dumb little things like this and remind myself, “they are CANDLES, big deal!”(the neighbors saved me and even had an 8 candle), thank goodness! Or waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to sleep over mulling things over and over in my head that I can’t do anything about at 2:30 in the morning anyway!It has been like one thing after another!
This is when, after a big day of starting the day off with a long run, working on spring cleaning outside, having early birthday for son, and finally crashing on the couch for a few minutes before hitting the bed and grabbing that BABY of mine curling him up real close to me, and remembering I am still young at heart, I have a healthy body, and I am wearing my age well, I am GRATEFUL!
122.a sleeping house
123.His mercies are new every morning
124.His grace is sufficient for me
125.His covenant love
127.hard working husband
129.a son sharing with me what he got out of a sermon at church, it was so enlightening
131.curling up in a blanket with my baby
I look forward to sharing Corvan’s birthday!