young at heart

A different place for me today. I have always been one to think that you basically are as old as you think you are. I am here in my 40’s and don’t feel any different than my 20’s inside my head or my body. I feel a little wiser about things but then always still learning new things too. I really have not even been a big fan of the word ‘lady’, sounds so old to me, I’m a ‘girl’. In the past few years I have changed thing up a little because of my age. I am a vitamin nut, I color my hair not just for affect but because I have gray, I dress more classy rather than trendy, I think more before I speak, I know that I can’t go a day without being in the Lord’s Word whether a minute or an hour, I run more, etc….

This weekend though a few thing made me feel ‘old’. I went to church and pulled out the ‘ole magnifying glasses so I could read the bible. My son said something to me and I looked up out the top of the glasses at him (you know that look). I was getting into the shower and turned to get something off of the counter got a glimpse of myself in the mirror and saw this saggy butt, I took a double take and did a little scream, like, “that is not my butt!” I was cleaning husband’s truck, a person from Jim’s job dropped by and after he left I got a reflection of myself in the mirror and thought to myself, “it is time to start wearing makeup even to do the chores around this house I am not that ‘natural’ beauty anymore, this Momma needs help! I had bought candles for Corvan’s cake and could not, for the life of me, find the darn things! Things like this drive me crazy, like obsessive crazy. I have to take dumb little things like this and remind myself, “they are CANDLES, big deal!”(the neighbors saved me and even had an 8 candle), thank goodness! Or waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to sleep over mulling things over and over in my head that I can’t do anything about at 2:30 in the morning anyway!It has been like one thing after another!

This is when, after a big day of starting the day off with a long run, working on spring cleaning outside, having early birthday for son, and finally crashing on the couch for a few minutes before hitting the bed and grabbing that BABY of mine curling him up real close to me, and remembering I am still young at heart, I have a healthy body, and I am wearing my age well, I am GRATEFUL!
122.a sleeping house
123.His mercies are new every morning
124.His grace is sufficient for me
125.His covenant love
126.spring break
127.hard working husband
128.understanding friends
129.a son sharing with me what he got out of a sermon at church, it was so enlightening
130.worshiping
131.curling up in a blanket with my baby
132.Corvan’s laugh
I look forward to sharing Corvan’s birthday!

April 4, 2011 - 3:49 pm

Shauna - You look WAAAYYYY young! YOu have the most awesome skin. Just wanted to say that.

I have felt that way in the last 2 years (and I am 10 years younger!!!). I catch a glimpse and think – WHAT? Who was THAT? I feel 18!

April 4, 2011 - 4:54 pm

Lora - Thank you for your kind words again. It’s so encouraging! πŸ™‚
I wonder if I will struggle with aging physically. I think about myself in my last days. I have all too vivid of a picture in my head from being beside my great grandmother the days before she passed. The way the body lets go. I try to meditate myself close enough to God that I am ready and willing. And then when I “come back” to 33 year old life I ease into my usual way holding onto some of that old me, “dying to Live”. It really does help.
I also read the scripture about Jesus’ appearance in Isaiah 53:
“He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him…
…Like one from whom men hide their faces
he was despised, and we esteemed him not.”

And then I focus on my focus for physical beauty and wrangle it back in check.
Oh this darn flesh of ours. πŸ™‚

Great post. Love to hear your heart.
Happy Birthday to your boy! πŸ™‚
Blessings Marlece.
Lora

April 4, 2011 - 5:49 pm

Leanne - Another reason to not call yourself old? We are the same age, so if you call yourself old you are calling me old. I’m not ready for you to call me old. And just think, twenty years from now we will be meeting for supper at 4:00 in the afternoon and our conversation will revolve around how young we were back when we thought we were old. There. Feel better???? πŸ™‚

April 4, 2011 - 6:18 pm

Lori - Ha! Oh Marlece, I feel ya!You should have heard my kids when I told them I broke my ankle! They joked about my age (you’re not as young as you used to be!) and having brittle bones (are you taking your calcium supplement?).

Don’t worry too much about the reality check in the mirror. Because you’re right, you wear your age VERY well, you have a great body, fantastic family, and an ageless spirit! You’re blessed and you rock.
Love you!

April 4, 2011 - 7:15 pm

Jenay - Oh sister….you are young looking and young at heart…YOU HAVE TO BE…because everyone always thinks I’m older than you!! I don’t see a saggy butt….you’ve never had one…so you better get those speck on when you look in the mirror. hehehe…I’m hearing you on being thankful where you are though…it freaks me out at times…to think we are in our 40’s is just plain wierd..where does the time go???

April 4, 2011 - 10:35 pm

Simply Sisters - Marlece, I am 13 and it takes Lashae and me a round trip around the store to find something stupid, trust me its not because your old. You still have that “natural beauty” because God created you. You will ALWAYS have the natural beauty and you don’t look your age! Love you!

April 5, 2011 - 2:32 am

Big Fat Mama! - I put shorts on for the first time a couple weeks ago since last summer and my daughter told me I looked old!! πŸ™‚

Reading your thankful list makes me think of all the things I’m thankful for too! I’m glad you do this every week!

April 6, 2011 - 3:02 am

The Angulo's - That’s awesome Marlece!

April 7, 2011 - 1:43 am

Mama Hen - I am sure your butt looks just fine! I know that feeling though when you look in the mirror and start to see yourself changing. I do not mind “lady” so much as I do Mam. I have been called that a little too often lately and I still feel like a “girl”. You are beautiful and your grateful list is wonderful! Have a great night my friend!

Mama Hen

April 9, 2011 - 1:00 am

Craig - Marlece – you’re just a Spring chcken in your 40’s I just left them myself. (β— β€Ώβ— )

As for the list I take these as my favorites because they all kind of go together and made me smile. Your hardworking hums takes second place:)

123.His mercies are new every morning
124.His grace is sufficient for me
125.His covenant love

they made me smile again. God bless.

April 10, 2011 - 12:13 pm

Mama Hen - I just stopped by to say hello. I hope you are having a great weekend! πŸ™‚

Mama Hen

April 24, 2011 - 4:51 am

Nabila Grace - Hah! Love this post! I am not in my 40’s yet but already feel some of the same things. ;o)

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