being a big girl…..

As a woman do you ever catch yourself doing something that you KNOW isn’t what you are suppose to be doing? Maybe something like manipulating a situation that you KNOW that you should be going to the Lord about it because He can move mountains for goodness sake, but instead, for some reason us women find it harder to go to prayer about something than take care of the situation with our controlling or manipulative ways on our own. There are ‘some things’ that I just see it no other way, I’m RIGHT and that is just the way it is and when someone else doesn’t see it my way it’s just frustrating….is this just me? These are times I think I want to have a serious talk with Eve when I get to heaven. (smile)

I’m a bit in this spot right now. A situation where we all make a decision one way or another yet I see it being a decision that only should go ONE WAY, THE RIGHT WAY, MY WAY!! Inside I feel like this little girl kicking and screaming to try and get my way.On the outside, I am this grown woman who talks to someone about the same decision I ‘get’ to make and to me it is a no brainer yet I have to talk inside of my head and bite my tongue and say, “Lord it’s your way!” Sometimes I find myself even trying to convince the Lord who IS God, all knowing, sovereign and THE ONE in control!

So, as I go about this, it is a CHOICE I am making to keep my mouth in check, my heart in check, and PRAY that the Lord’s will will be done on earth as it is in heaven and be happy with a good attitude no matter what the outcome! Isn’t that being a big girl of me? (smile again)

October 25, 2011 - 11:16 pm

Jenay - That’s a big girl!!! Bite your’s always soooo much sweeter when you allow the Lord to do it and you don’t muddy things up. When I say you…I mean “we”…I battle this as well..but I know that when I do keep my mouth shut and my prayers open it is a BLESSING and I don’t make trouble. Love ya!! Your heart is in the right place…just our mouth that isn’t. hehe.

October 25, 2011 - 11:26 pm

Anonymous - oh yeah…i can totally see myself in your words! 🙂

i’m learning i don’t have it all figured out and i’m pretty much nothing without HIM! 🙂

mountain mama

October 26, 2011 - 12:51 am

Shauna - Well….I want to know [says the little sister…]

October 26, 2011 - 1:19 am

Mari - Here from Finding Heaven…this post made me smile. A talk with Eve? You and me both! Thanks for sharing =)

October 26, 2011 - 2:23 am

Jen - Oh, I can so relate, sweet lady. I’m praying for sweet peace to enter your heart.

October 26, 2011 - 3:02 am

Heidi Leanne - Yes, how well I can relate! I’ve been struggling with this a lot. I’m sure my way really IS Gods way though . . . ya see – I don’t think I’ve come as far as you have! ha! 🙂

October 26, 2011 - 6:49 am

Madame Mara Wildflower - I can relate to the words in this post. I know that sometimes, I struggle to be a “big girl” when it comes to checking-in with God first instead of just doing things “my way.” Oh yeah! I know this feeling all too well. You’re not alone in your struggles.

October 26, 2011 - 4:32 pm

Anonymous - My friend, you KNOW I’m the same way!!
A 🙂

October 28, 2011 - 4:54 pm

Lashae Bowen - You are such a big girl. I wanna be like you. As long as your heart is in the right place your mouth should follow. I love you!! What an awesome auntie you are! Lolly

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