being brave or being a baby…..

Is anyone else besides me so scared of the dentist that the anticipation of knowing the appointment is coming sends you right into the bathroom because of the nerves? I ask my mom, “WHY AM I LIKE THIS?” She says it’s genetic but I don’t know about that, I think she is just making me feel like I’m not alone.

I went to a new dentist because of insurance on Friday. I have been going to the same dentist for 16 years now. I trust him and they have always made me to believe I was doing my job at home. I’ve had two cavities in my life and two wisdom teeth pulled. Each time? I get nauseated and have to stop on side of the road to get sick after the appointment out of nerves getting the best of me. I remember when my 1st baby had a cavity, I sent him in to the dentist while I went and sat on the toilet the whole appointment. Out of being so scared of what he was going to have to endure at four years old. He came out of there smilin’ and had a blast! I floss and brush twice a day, yes, flossing every day, out of, RIGHT OUT FEAR of what could happen if I DON’T!

So, I go in on Friday and I left there feeling like I have not taken good care of my teeth because when I had gone into my dentist 6 months ago all was good and now they need a major overhaul. The two cavities? Needed replacing, I have a sensative spot that needed ‘covered over’ and while we are at it let’s numb your whole mouth and give you a deep cleaning!!! I called my girl friend that is a dental assistant and shed many tears telling her what happened.

So, today was the day, I woke up crying, I went in crying, I am such a BABY! They did not know what to do with me. I’m a tough girl during the proceedure and really it isn’t that bad once I’m into it, it’s the before, I FREAK!

I sat there in that chair and my tongue got numb and felt like it was taking all the space in my mouth, I felt my lips were as big as the room, at one point I started to panic (when they left me for a few minutes to let the numbing stuff really take affect and as I sat there I started having an anxiety attack thinking my throat was numb, I couldn’t swallow, I was going to DIE!! I was laying down and shot straight up, and trying to talk myself down, “you are ok, you are ok, breath, breath!, ok, I’m ok, I am ok” The doctor comes in, “are you ok?” Can’t talk I have a numb tongue, “ugh huh” (hold back the tears, hold them back!!!) Pretty uneventful after that, feel pretty sick on the way home, and now I sit here and am still numb but I’m alive.

I woke up this morning telling myself to be a big girl, be BRAVE, YOU CAN DO IT! Blah on all of that self talk!!!
WIll I EVER learn that the dentist is not the one going to send me straight to the pearly gates?

January 9, 2012 - 10:48 pm

Anonymous - I can’t believe you let them talk you into that!!

January 9, 2012 - 11:13 pm

Lashae Bowen - HAHA!!! Laughing…Sorry I can’t help it and I think it is because I GET it! Every time I go to the dentist I get more and more afraid!! UGH! I HATE it!! Why must it be so awful? I am sorry you had to do that but am so proud of you! 🙂

January 9, 2012 - 11:53 pm

Jenay - Oh Sister…I’m so sorry. I know how bad you had to go to the dentist…I’m so with you, I would rather have a baby…not even kidding. I have huge sympathy!!! HUGE!!! I’m proud of you, you are a good girl for baring down and getting it done.

January 10, 2012 - 5:37 am

Olga - Aww marlece! You will be fine. I hate going to the dentist too.

*hug* 🙂

January 10, 2012 - 5:31 pm

Meme - My poor baby…as I told you I can so-o-o relate..but so glad you are bucking up & taking care of your teeth, it’s so important to all around health, plus it is a comfort to me that you are taking care of your parents’ investment–AND the best part is…you didn’t wake up paralyzed!!!(Our private joke…ha ha)

January 11, 2012 - 5:28 pm

Rachel Jean - UGH! I hate it too, which is why I put it off way too long. Good for you for getting it done! I’m sorry it was such a difficult day! Love you!

January 12, 2012 - 6:19 pm

Amy Sullivan - Marlece,
So, I am not afraid of the dentist, but everyone who works at my dentist’s office thinks I am.

Every time I sit in that chair, the light makes my eyes water nonstop. Even before I plop myself down, my eyes start watering just thinking about it. I’ve told employees I’m fine, and it’s just an eye thing, but I can tell they don’t believe me.

But, let’s get real, it is a pretty awful experience!

January 13, 2012 - 1:36 pm

Far Above Rubies - Marlece, you’re too funny. I’m not trying to laugh at your expense, but I can’t help it.

I know exactly how you feel and your description of how I have felt is so accurate and hilarious.

Thanks for giving me hope that I’m not alone in my fear of dentists.

January 13, 2012 - 8:11 pm

Cheryl@OntheOldPath - Marlece I HATE going to the dentist, I don’t even like taking the kids, if Dave is off I get him to take them. I was suppose to go and rescheduled it to March to give myself more time to psych myself up for it. Funny we can handle some crazy big stuff but having someone stick their hands in our mouth and….yikes!!!

January 16, 2012 - 7:07 am

Gina - LOL! Girl! I say, “BABY!”
You haven’t lived til you have had root canals, crowns, teeth pulled and a horribly violent gum-cutting experience.

I am kidding. You are probably terrified because of me. Listening to my stories. And I never knew you had such fear.

It’s NOT fun. At all. But, we gotta do it. Maintenance is much easier than recovery. Believe me.
Besides, God has not given you a spirit of fear but of peace and love and a heart for dentistry. *or something like that*

I love you. And I will not tell you my dentist stories anymore.

January 21, 2012 - 4:52 am

Holly - Oh sweetie! I have never hated the dentist more than I do right now. My teeth are betraying me as I get older and I’m not happy. Did you know that there are dentists who will prescribe for you to take a little anti anxiety meds BEFORE you come in? Sounds like you need to find one of those guys! In the last three weeks I have had a root canal, and 3 fillings and get another filling next week! I have vowed each time I go in that I will never touch another drop of sugar as long as I live. We’ll see how faithful I am….

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