Romans 8:28 New Life Version (NLV) 28 We know that God makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are chosen to be a part of His plan.
I believe this, I believe God, I trust Him, I have faith, maybe just a measure at times, but that is all He says we need, I do not waiver in KNOWING He is my Lord and I am His.I do want His plan for my life and beg the Lord that He give me the tools and convictions to raise my boys to want the same.
Even so, at this moment in my little world I really have to focus on the things that are good even if it is just a moment here and a moment there. Being thankful in these things gets me thru the ugly that keeps popping its nasty head in between it all.
When one of my family members stumbles or right out fails I take it sooooooo personally. Especially if it is my husband or one of my kiddoes. I feel like a big fat failure. Either it is my lack of as a wife or my parenting to my boys. I am a sinner, and thank the Lord he looks upon my heart. Sometimes if the actions of one of my family members doesn’t reflect my heart for them, it crushes me right down to the bone. Sometimes, I look and think, where in the heck did I go wrong here? Satan would like fear to encompass me so that I cannot functions to the capacity I am to as a Mom or wife. I just speak over that and remind myself that there is no fear in love.
My goal for me and how I raise my boys is to love the Lord our God with all of their heart, soul, mind and strength, to love Jesus way more than anybody or anything else. The second thing is, their character, they don’t lie, they are kind, hard workers, moral, etc…, and I want them to treat their girl someday with respect and love. That the one he chooses loves Jesus more than him, and that he loves Jesus more than her.
My husband? I have learned that I can only control my actions as a wife and that I then pray about anything else beyond that.
So when I am not seeing the ‘all things work together for the good’, I look at where I have gone wrong. Even when I think like this I do know that I have given a solid foundation, I have shown them what it is to love Jesus, I have led them down a path that I know is centered around Jesus, so therefore, the actions they choose that are not any of this, I know I have done my best in grounding them in the ways of the Lord.