Dear Ruby girl,
Today, on my facebook feed came up a memory of you from one year ago and it made me undone again.
I miss you, every time I get out there to run I think of you. Until you weren’t there beside me every step I didn’t realize how much more that I felt safe and just having you as a companion!
When you left us, you did it in such a way that still makes me want to sit here and bawl. Your dad got up early in the morning to head off to work and you were laying there on your mat in the kitchen ready to be scratched and all about doing your tricks. You knew the drill. Bark, roll over, shake, and then walk him out to his car to say goodbye. This particular day you were right on cue just like the norm except I mentioned to your dad that you seemed just a little more needy than most days. Just acting like you were wanting to be that much closer to him. He didn’t see it, but I did. I did a few appointments in the salon with them all giving you a little love on their way in and out, just like normal. Then I left for about an hour and a half to get Layton a birthday gift and I got back and you were gone nowhere to be found. Disappeared! We have looked EVERYWHERE for you, asked everyone to look for you, but in my heart I knew you were gracious enough to just leave silently and go die. You are the sweetest thing to care enough to not see you in that condition. It’s just so like you.
We have had a good summer but I have to tell you, I just finished a run just now and was missing you like crazy, then we are going on a hike and I miss you every time. When I take the boys to the river I miss you even more. Throwing sticks to you and watching you jump in and swim for it to bring it back to me. I realize, you are the one that has been my friend all these years while the boys do their thing we do our thing. I miss it so bad!
Anyway, you are missed. Thanks for being my excellent partner for all those years.